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Could I feel more BLAH? I mean really? Could life be more monotnus and yet stressful at the same time? I don't know.

Lets see...

We're broke. Not just regular "I can't buy that $150 carseat I want." I mean "Shoot, what bill can wait till next payday" kind of broke. And I hate that. We were doing well. Money was fine. We were saving...then of course...like always, the other shoe drops. Damn that shoe.

Shoe one is 2 tires blowing out on J's car in the span of 90 minutes. And no, I'm not even remotely kidding. That was $90 for the tires, thankfully J is a mechanic so all we had to do was pay for the tires and mouting them on the rim, J put them on the car himself.

Okay, so we had the $90 in savings so all was well....well except for our savings account is now $340 shorter than it was at the begining of the month ($200 for his licenseing at Primerica, $90 for tires, $50 for diapers) which sucks.

I guess I should say the tires were shoe 2. Shoe 1 was when J went to the eye doctor a month or so ago about this color splotch in his vision he's been ignoring for a couple months now. Turns out it's leaking veins. Possibly the begining of Diabetic Retinapothy. Not good. Not good at all. So his regular eye doctor sends him up to the specialist who properlly diagnoses it and says that J needs to have at least 4 lazer surgeries to save his vision. Okay, we can deal with this. Except that each surgery requires him to miss at least 1 more likely 2 or 3 days of work. He'll only miss 1 if we're lucky enough to schedule on a Friday. Two missed days if he schedules on a Thrusday, 3 if he schedules any other day o the week...one day for surgery, 2 days for recovery. Wonderful. Wonderful indeed.

He has PTO so this isn't life or deaht...except it is eating up every bit of his PTO that he has saved for taking time off once the baby is born. So of course this means I'll be completely on my own with 2 kids probably from the day we come home from the hospital. Ask me how badly this sucks?

Not only am I stressed about J's vision issues, but now we have PTO...after baby time....and $$ issues all on top of that. *sigh*

We're hoping that he'll be making some money at Primerica by November and we'll have enough stashed away in savings that he can take a week unpaid and we can just borrow from savings....again not an ideal situation as our savings is supposed to be to buy me a new van and put a down payment on a house...

Which brings us to our next quandry.

Do we buy a house, which we kinda can't afford just yet, and probably can't get a loan for anyway with our terrible credit. Or do we consolidate all our bills and keep on paying on that loan and try to get into a bigger apartment/house? If we do public housing then we should be able to swing it $$ wise.

Decisions Decisions...