First appt...

My first appt is Monday. I figure after that we'll break the news to the family. I think I'll tell my dad. I haven't decided if I want to do this on the phone, in person or over text. I'm honestly worried about his reaction.

After that I'll 'come out' on Facebook and Myspace...Josh's siblings will see it there and they'll blab. I'm sick of him putting it off because he doesn't want to deal with his families wrath. We can't put it off much longer, by the time of his surgery I'll be 13 weeks...and this is my FOURTH pregnancy. I'm alreay basically as big as a house. I think I look like I'm well into my 3rd or 4th month rather than only 9.5 weeks like I actually am. But that's to be expected I suppose. We'll see.

Part of me wants to put it off as long as humanly possible. The other part of me wants to tell people, because when people KNOW it'll finally seem real, ya know? Like right now it feels sorta unreal still...which sucks...